Hey gals...thanks for the comments. *smiles* Here's to staying honest to our feelings, Aussiegirl - absolutely all of them.

No need to hide, Asia! It's a rambling thread - just ramble away if you feel like it. In a way, this is my way of exhibitionism...just that I lay open my feelings and thoughts instead of my body. I'm glad if any of this strikes a chord with someone or even helps to validate some of their own feelings, maybe even learn a little. It's my way to sort through the rollercoaster ride and make sense of the joy, fear, excitement and occasional pain...if it resonates with you - even better! I'd like to hear about it.