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I am sorry

I have been a sub for over 5 years now and for the first time I find myself questioning what it is that I want, what I need. It seems strange to me that all of a sudden I find myself thinking about something that for so long I never questioned. However, now that I find myself leaving a relationship of 4 years behind and starting a new one it has become more important that ever.

Even though I may be a sub I still have wants and needs that have to be met in order for a relationship ...

I was reading a thread here a few days ago about orgasm denial, and a bunch of people chimed in to say they thought it was horrible, and that watching their 'sub' orgasm was what turned them on. At first I agreed with them, but the more I think about it, the more I think that, in some cases, orgasm is when the sex ends. It's the time before orgasm, when your mind is foggy and you are out of it just because of a little tingle through your body--that is the sex. Sometimes (not too often) I seem ...

A lot of submissives on this site seem to be into a 24/7 type D/s relationship. I'm wondering about the people are who are more into the "equal except in the bedroom" D/s relationships, which is as far as I can imagine myself going in RL. I've never shared my fantasies or my desires with my bfs (I've always been a bit embarrassed about them), and it's been a couple of years of singledom since I've moved, so I'm not sure how I would handle any of it, or if I would even be able to bring ...

Since I moved from San Francisco to the Boston area I've found myself more...interested isn't the right word...in indulging in my fantasies. It's gotten me thinking, both about how they seem to dominate more of my thoughts now, and why these particular fantasies; why so raw and so violent with me as the victim?

I couldn't seem to find a place to post this.... The following (and variations on it, which should be clear) is one of my favorite fantasies, one that I go back to when I'm feeling particularly 'wrong'.

It is really raw, and I'm a embarrassed to admit how much I enjoyed writing it out. It takes place like this in my head, but with more repetition, and variation.

Miss Mei Chui

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I brush the hair from my face as I lean forward to sip ...

I am sorry

I am sorry

This was hands down the best valentines day ever! I have the best Master a slave could ask for. I wanted to share a little of our weekend...

It had been way to long since we have gone out just the two of us so Master decided to get a hotel for the night....Woohoo! dinner and a night in a hotel sounded awesome. Then he suggested we finally go to a munch and demo at our local club. To say that I was excited was a huge understatement. More than being excited I was very nervous.
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