I just read a post about emotional reactions and bdsm. I know that I had a strange childhood and that for me bdsm helps me to work out some of my own emotional problems in a good way. is that healthy? I know that some of my emotional problems are what causes me to enjoy bdsm sooooo much, it is why I am a sub, does everyone have some life-changing memory of their previous experiences that cause them to enjoy bdsm or is it just a thing?
Why is it that all through my life i have made the same choices over and over again. I trust too much and give my all to someone only to be disappointed. I'm married, have been for 20 years, we've known each other for 28 - and for the 8 years before we were married he cheated on me countless times, always coming back with the words 'its you I really want'. 'Mmmm beginning of a pattern' you might say - but hey'ho, love is blind. As soon as we married, it stopped, he was completely faithful (I ...
Is the chat room down?
I hate blogs. That isn't exactly true. It's the lame assed completely fucked up blogs I hate that do not allow the reader to comment. Recently, I perused a couple blogs with entries touting the skills of the author as a writer. Of course, the blogs were error laden and poorly phrased. It was then that I carefully composed an appropriate comment to the blog's author (in my head) only to be thwarted by the lack of a "comment" button, leaving me disappointed, depressed and ...
Okay, so I decided a long time ago that I would not make New Year's resolutions anymore. They have done studies that even prove that we are more inclined to fail at resolutions when we force them on ourselves suddenly because it's a new year. Having said this, I have had the same resolution for 5 years now. Live how my grandfather would live - not as a resolution but as a way of life. - family are always the most important. - be the best friend you can be to ...
I decided a long time ago that I would not make New Year's resolutions anymore. They have done studies that even prove that we are more inclined to fail at resolutions when we force them on ourselves suddenly because it's a new year. I have chosen to live how my grandfather would live - not as a resolution but as a way of life. - family are always the most important. - be the best friend you can be to everyone. - be proud, yet humble - work hard ...
Last night before bed, I asked Master if I could sleep with my pink thing (pink dildo) in me. I love the feeling of being used, the slight pain of being violated the night before - craving it -is what makes me the whore I am for Him. First master said 'no' but then he changed his mind. I pulled it out of the drawer & slowly started inserting it. Master helps. He slides his fingers over my clit. Without warning, I squirted. "remember, no squirting" he tells me. I didn't even know ...
Last night Master and I were playing and he decided to use the wartenberg wheel on me. I was laying there naked while he rolled the wheel across my skin. Over my chest and stomach, down my legs over other yummy parts. This was all met with a mixture of pain and pleasure on my part. I had a difficult time staying still as he ran it over my clit because I was cold and shivering. I must say I was very nervous at that point. Not that he would hurt me, but that I would jerk because I was cold and hurt ...
I think I'm in hell, and I don't anticipate it freezing over anytime soon.
O M G do I hate internet shorthand! I actually got a letter from a friend - hand written, in an envelope, stamped and then watermarked by the post office. The first sentence ended with "LOL" in big cursive letters. Immediately, I thought OMFG, my BFF is FUBAR and if she ever SMS's me again I will make certain she RIPs! Then she proceeded to give me TMI on the QT and actually drew in emoticons. A bit further on down in the letter I got a LMFAO that made me want to shoot her ...
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