I feel too deeply with it for me to try to patch together a relationship, no matter how loving, without having a strong D/s, s/m element in my lover. I started on a path to become the kind of man who can be trusted to Top a woman cleanly and with passion, and tried to find partners for whom my roles, fantasies, my dominant and sadistic nature is not an undesirable or merely tolerated inconvenience, but an asset, something prized and sought