Since I flinch every time that RedSilk gets into slave mode when we talk, I guess that would qualify me as a submissive at the most. *giggles* And sometimes I even question myself on that one...

Yes, I do like to give up control and submit, it gives me a thrill, puts a smile on my face, makes me wet...but I feel I'm only submitting when I want to. Ok, that's not entirely right, I'm exaggerating here to make a point. I guess what I'm trying to say is that I occasionally feel too bold/bratty/dominant even? to call myself a submissive. A term I've labled myself with on one of those occasions was "fair-wheather-sub", i. e. a person who submits when he/she is in the mood for it.

That said, I haven't been in any significant longer lasting online or r/l D/s relationship and that probably makes a huge difference. In what way? I'm not sure, I guess it could go either way, really. One option being that I might find myself growing more submissive as the relationship gets more demanding and involved and the other option being that the potential Master would get fed up and kick me out.

All I know is that I seem to be torn between loving my freedom and coming to terms with my submissive desires. So, in short - being a slave might turn me on in my fantasies but being submissive is the more realistic goal. *grins*

Just me.
Silke

PS: maybe a sub(optimal)-submissive? *grins*