Okay.. for me it is pretty different wether I may not masturbate or am denied orgasm

denying me to masturbate does not really work on me if you want me on the edge.... not without someone arousing me on purpose.... it lets me feel frustrated, it makes me feel masters power - itīs his to decide wether I may or may not play with myself. I sometimes get angry with myself because I feel my fingers wander on innocent parts of my body, I let them move slightly over my wrist for example, and I get frustrated because I cannot control myself.
If Iīm just denied to cum... I just canīt keep myself from playing even harder than usually with myself. Donīt ask how I manage to stop just in time, but fortunately I seldomly fail in this. This is something that makes me feel crazy. I really do like beeing on the edge but it is awkward when I am so frustrated sexually, that I get aroused by harmless and innocent every-day-situations, as for example somebody walking close by me...
Both situations, cum restriction as well as beeing forbidden to masturbate, give me mixed feelings.. I love beeing on the edge but it is really hard to keep my senses together. Still I know how much better it will be next time I am allowed to cum. If I may not masturbate I feel dependent on master, feel his superiority so much more. I feel that I cannot always control my body when I absentmindedly start stroking myself.. but after some time, lets say three or four days, it almost loses its effect on me. I forget about stroking altogether and my libido falls into some kind of sleep until something unusual arouses me...


just my 2 cents..

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