I agree it is a confusing experience, though my own wondering has just started and has been mostly unconscious for the most part prior to this, my Master actually has a taste of submissiveness and sometimes needs the release of allowing me to top him.

I almost always find this an unsettling expiriance and find I need a very thorough round of domination soon afterwords or I'm in a funk for days where I can't quiet get back into being submissive but I still think of myself as completely submissive.

My Master has encourage me to explore the possibilities of being more comfortable with going back and forth more easily, if I can find someone I'm comfortable with. Seeing as I almost always need quiet a bit of prodding to be able to 'take up the leash' so to speak.

I know I've not offered any real advice but I hope you feel better just knowing you're not alone in this confusing time. No one else knows what's going on either, lol.

Sana