Help..How do I get through this?

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Okay, I cannot compare what you are going through to anything I have experienced myself outside of the loss of close family.

All I can say is you are in mourning. You need to process the loss you are experiencing by finding an outlet or way to express those feelings. After that the best healer is time. I know it's rather clinical for me to say it this way, but hopefully it can be of some help in a form.

Accept your pain, grieve and express it in a way you feel comfortable and from there, let time do what it does best.

I wish I could be of more help.

I have to completely concur with this.

To add, you must allow your memory of your submissive to remain. Remember the good times. You also have to mentally let them go. While your time was memorable, and enjoyable, you must keep the memory but release them from this temporal world they resided in. Doing so allows you to release the emotions kept inside. So put their things in a box, or a storage room if you feel the need to keep these things. But don't surround yourself with them, this makes getting past their passing that much more difficult.

The part Lateques had said about finding an outlet is VERY important. Find a hobby, any hobby, and join a group that has meetings and stuff. This helps you get out of the home, and surround yourself with others. They might have known your love, or might not. The important thing to know is this group of people will be an outlet you can vent to, and lean on as your sorrow ebbs and flows in severity.