I had it as a hard no, too, until my current boyfriend. We took it V-E-R-Y slow, starting with one finger during one session, building up to two in later sessions, before his penis got near there. I insisted on a condom for it, we used a lot of lube, and it was awesome! He said I pulled him right in; he didn't have to work to get in, but he did a lot of work beforehand. Would I do it with someone else? Don't know; I can't imagine having another lover I have this level of trust with. (No, I don't sleep with just anyone, but he and I go back 16 years, and he was my friend and little brother-5 years difference, I'm a cougar now-long before we did as much as kiss.) Besides, I don't know anyone else who gets me excited just by walking in the room.