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After we moved from that quiet street with the boys and ropes i never thought about it much any more. At least i do not think i thought about it much more. The next large recollection of anything like that was much much later, I was well into my teens. Of course thoughts of boys dancing in my head, giggling with girlfriends talking about who is the sexiest of them all. But in the end i was not attracted to those boys, i like the older ones, the ones who were more sure of themselves, the once who ...

In the last week or so i did some serious reflecting on my life trying to figure out the past and perhaps carve a way to my future. so reflection has been a part of my chores that I gave myself last week, my friends death sorta gave me a rude awakening in things.
People used to asked me what made me decide to even looking into this lifestyle and i honestly never really had an answer for it. so now i decided to start from the beginning, prolly gonna happen in stages, but i will be brutally ...

a few weeks ago i had the pleasure of meeting a very special submissive. she was in the lifestyle for a very long time, had the most wonderful disposition and a great attitude. no question to her was a bad questions, her whole attitude was most pleasant. she had the special gift of making people smile around her and make even a stranger feel welcome and at home. my first munch she always had a smile for me and gave encouragement with just a look and a smile. at a large bdsm event only recently she ...

for years and years i lurked, read everything under the sun that contained anything and everything about bdsm. my fantasies rampant, my arousal at the stories so great. Laying in bed at night fantasizing about the girl that is being controlled by the strong Master, who gets punished for her indiscretions. i was the girl lurking in the chat rooms, watching, listening, thinking that i was learning. but what did i really learn, that strong men are an arousal for me, that their dominance makes me week ...

does anyone else have trouble taking *the first step*? I mean how do you approach someone, or even worse tell someone you have known for a long time and tell them that your thoughts are not always so.. so pure? And even if you go to an alternative lifestyle site, how do you admit on how you really feel about some things? I mean how can you trust someone to admit your most intimate thoughts.. to tell them what arouses you, what excites you.. what is a turn on? So my approach is always.. well what ...

Having read and read and read anything under the sun about bdsm, made the decision to take it a step further. But then again that is easier said then done. Even though bdsm and other fetishes seem to be in vogue and accepted as an *in* thing to do, there is still a certain stigma attached, especially when one would want to have a serious conversation about it. I mean it is ok for *others* to be that way, but for themselves it is just not acceptable. I guess what I mean I was trying to have a conversation ...