Once A Fallen Sub

[snowflake]

A fallen sub,
that had nothing left,
torn,
hurt,
broken.

Why you may ask,
but does it matter,
scared,
lifeless,
emotional.

Totally fearing,
to trust again.
shaken,
insecure,
untouchable.

So wanting to be,
what she was.
despair,
need,
desperation.

Grasping at straws,
that only broke.
heart ache,
pain,
suffering.

And she finally,
hid away.
loneliness,
confinement,
anguish.

Til one day,
she peeked out,
curious,
wonder,
nervous.

She decided,
it was time.
longing,
wanting,
needing.

Her pain,
had finally subsided.
breathing,
relaxed,
content.

And has once more,
returned home.
happy,
smiling,
willing.

It has been near 2 two years since i have actually felt ok with myself enough to once more return to this site. i have tried a few times but faltered, but now i feel ready to once more return. i am very hopeful one day i shall find another o/l Sir, but until then i am glad to be back with my friends.

Of course i am still with The Tester, He is my r/l Master, and i still love him with all my heart.

hugs
snow

[rosebud]

You write so beautifully, snow! Thanks for sharing that and
Big Welcome back hugs to you, hun. You've been missed!
Love you!

[snowflake]

Aww thanks Rosie, i have never written in this style before .. but i am trying for a fresh new me, and well before i left i was getting taught a different way to write. This is my first attempt on my own to write in such a form. i hope i got it right , blushes. No matter i am feeling much better as the poem suggests.. and you my dear friend are one that i missed soo much.. so nice to be with you again..

hugs
love you too
snow
xxxoooo

[denuseri]

I am so very glad you have found yourself again my sister! HUGS and kissess!!

[snowflake]

Thank you so much Denuseri. i have missed you as well my sister.. Huge Hugs and so glad to be around you again as well my goodfriend
hugs
snow
xxxx